Thursday, March 31, 2011

Time Capsule

Last night, I had a moment of clarity. This happens very rarely for me, so I must blog about it.
I was sitting at Boondoggles with my people (yes, I have people), and we were talking about making a time capsule.
Each of the girls in the group - Kenna, Mindy, Megan and I - would write down predictions for each other's lives in one year. We plan to keep our predictions to ourselves (which will never happen, because we're all blabbermouths), and in one year we will dig up the time capsule and see where our lives actually are in comparison to where our friends thought our lives would be.
Kind of an interesting idea.
This led me to wonder where my life will be in one year. I don't often think that far in advance, you see. I'm usually running so fast to get everywhere that I need to go, that I don't have time to stop and think about things like that. It's go, go, go these days. Constantly running. But since I'm quite certain that I have the Adult A.D.D. - this works for me. I like constantly running.
So back to what I was saying - my moment of clarity: For the first time in a long time, I feel happy. I feel settled. I feel comfortable in my skin (despite my recent weight gain).
And while I'm ok with giving predictions about everyone else's lives, I don't want to give one for myself. Because it's so nice to just live in the moment. To be in a relationship with the person that I love so much. To be surrounded by friends who accept the good and the bad parts of me and love me no matter what. To play softball on teams where we have nothing but fun. To have a family nearby who may not understand me at all times, but who is always, always supportive no matter what. To have a job where I'm surrounded by co-workers that I laugh with so much.
I don't always take the easy route to get where I'm going, and the last few years have been filled with unexpected twists and turns. But in this moment, I am happy.
And that's enough for me.
And that feels good.


At 10:12 AM, Blogger Kenna said...

I love you. And I am so glad that I have someone that I can relate to. I'm actually comforted with the thought that I know where I will be in a year. Surprises are nice. But, I will take boring old security any day.


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